I’m stressed out beyond any point I’ve ever been before. I’m one of those people that lets it build and build… until it’s completely out of control. This past week:
- My husband and I decided we need to drastically scale back on our budget. I know it’s such a trivial thing, but it’s stressful none the less.
- I started a new job in a grade I have no experience in and I’m starting to feel the pressure. I feel inadequate.
- I found out that my grandmother has cancer in her lungs, liver, and adrenal glands. I feel bad that I haven’t been spending time with her lately.
When it rains, it pours.
(Luckily, I had a bachelorette party to attend in Charlotte this weekend that helped me take my mind off of it all… for the most part. Saturday I ended up calling a friend at home and balling my eyes out. I just needed to get it out of my system. And I wasn’t about to unload it on my friend who should be having one of the most fun weekends of her life.)
I know that many people around the world are going through things that are much tougher than anything I have ever dealt with. I don’t want to sound like I think that my life is in total shambles, because it’s not. Hell, my grandma is taking this like a champ. I’m just not dealing with it all properly. I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like myself right now.
As I type this, I’m so thankful that I have this little blog as an outlet. It’s definitely already helping me calm down and I appreciate the fact that you guys let me unleash all of my whining on you! I will elaborate on most of the things I’ve mentioned, but for now I’m going to try to unwind and get ready for school tomorrow. I’m going to try to kick some serious ELA and Social Studies butt!